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Monday, October 20, 2008

I feel like I'm forced to perform for a grade rather than to learn. I honestly enjoy physics for the most part, cuz i think it's interesting how the forces work together and make motion happen and stuff like that. I want to get the conceptual stuff right so that I can really prove I understand the concepts, but I can't make what I know go onto paper cuz I'm not good ENOUGH to do both concepts and plug-and-chug stuff.

Right now I can do kinematic stuff and forces pretty well, but we're doing Energy stuff now which means I'm supposed to think in terms of work and energy as opposed to kinematics. But I don't understand energy and work as well and I can't seem to make myself understand it so I naturally revert to solving the problems kinematically. I end up stuck between kinematics and work/energy, not getting the right answers, because I don't fully understand the one yet I'm trying to make up for it by using what I know from the other : /

I don't even know that going to her office hours will help cuz I always go to her office hours and I still got a B on the first test which I should have done the best on cuz it's the one I understand the best and like the best. I'm afraid I'm going to get a B or C in Physics one AGAIN and not only look bad for PT school but also in a way fail myself : /

I don't want to give in and just learn to plug numbers into preset formulas, or put the equations with solutions from the practice test onto the cheat sheet (which I guess is allowed) cuz I feel like I'm cheating myself. Yet I feel like I'm at a disadvantage because I am trying to learn the correct way yet it's not working and I really need the grade. If the grade reflected the amount of effort I put into the class then I feel like it should be an A, but I feel like the grade is reflecting my ability to learn from a teacher who doesn't teach well, and all I have to go on is a textbook (which doesn't help because one of my main problems comes from doing the problems SHE writes, not the ones the book writes).

I don't know what to do : ( I'm going to go to her office hours again but I'm afraid I'll start tearing or crying because I want her to understand how much effort I'm putting in and I want her to help me understand but it just doesn't seem to be getting there. And I know shes doing her best already, so what more can I ask if she's doing all that she can and she's answering all the questions I have?

I'm supposed to rely on God and even though God isn't gonna give me the grade I want, I should look for what I'm supposed to learn about life and stuff in the situation. But I don't know if stubbornly sticking by my desire to do the work of my own ability and understanding is going to make the grade. If I give in to the "methods" that might get me the grade, like writing down the formulas on how to work out the practice test probs, or resorting to equations that fit particular situations, I will be forgoing what I believe in and truly not learning. Maybe I am supposed to "trust God" by doing it the same way I always do and if I end up with a B or C and still manage to get into PT school then I'll know I got in by His power and not my own? Or is it more like surrendering my desire to know things well and just doing it by proven methods of plug-and-chug? I guess the former scenario sounds better, but who am I to guess what God has in store. I really want an A though : (


Friday, December 01, 2006

Matthew 18:21-35 

 21. Peter: "Lord, how many times shall I forgive my brother when he sins against me? Up to seven times?" 
 22. Jesus: "I tell you, not seven times, but seventy-seven times.

 23"Therefore, the kingdom of heaven is like a king who wanted to settle accounts with his servants. 24As he began the settlement, a man who owed him ten thousand talents (money) was brought to him. 25Since he was not able to pay, the master ordered that he and his wife and his children and all that he had be sold to repay the debt.

 26"The servant fell on his knees before him. 'Be patient with me,' he begged, 'and I will pay back everything.' 27The servant's master took pity on him, canceled the debt and let him go.

 28"But when that servant went out, he found one of his fellow servants who owed him a hundred denarii (money, but an even smaller amount). He grabbed him and began to choke him. 'Pay back what you owe me!' he demanded.

 29"His fellow servant fell to his knees and begged him, 'Be patient with me, and I will pay you back.'

 30"But he refused. Instead, he went off and had the man thrown into prison until he could pay the debt. 31When the other servants saw what had happened, they were greatly distressed and went and told their master everything that had happened.

 32"Then the master called the servant in. 'You wicked servant,' he said, 'I canceled all that debt of yours because you begged me to. 33Shouldn't you have had mercy on your fellow servant just as I had on you?' 34In anger his master turned him over to the jailers to be tortured, until he should pay back all he owed.

 35"This is how my heavenly Father will treat each of you unless you forgive your brother from your heart."

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God forgave everything we do by sending Jesus to propitiate, to satisfy, that debt. He was and is so forgiving to us; why then shall we not show others that same love and unconditional forgiveness and therefore demonstrate the love and power of God?

Fairness? Whose fault? Who is more wrong? Who should apologize/forgive first? Doesn't matter. Just do it.

...Man thats hard.


Friday, November 24, 2006

In Which Jlam Shoots Becca Multiple Times...

NikKiBubBle 04 (10:20:15 PM): PARENTS GONE WEEE WILD PARTIES TIME!!!
NikKiBubBle 04 (10:20:21 PM): *drinks apple cider*
QuantumFury (10:20:23 PM)
: OMG
QuantumFury (10:20:24 PM): LOL
QuantumFury (10:20:35 PM): now now
QuantumFury (10:20:38 PM): dont get too crazie
NikKiBubBle 04 (10:20:55 PM): YES *drinks 2!!!!! cups of cider*
QuantumFury (10:21:00 PM)
: tsk tsk
QuantumFury (10:21:03 PM): you're not 21 yet!
QuantumFury (10:21:05 PM): 2 more weeks
QuantumFury (10:22:42 PM): haha do u have sparkiling cider?
NikKiBubBle 04 (10:23:28 PM): haha noees
NikKiBubBle 04 (10:23:33 PM): all we have is milk and water
NikKiBubBle 04 (10:23:34 PM)
: haha
QuantumFury (10:23:40 PM)
: haha
QuantumFury (10:23:42 PM): well then
QuantumFury (10:23:50 PM): gallon challenge!
NikKiBubBle 04 (10:25:09 PM): haha
NikKiBubBle 04 (10:25:14 PM): we only have like a cupful left =/
NikKiBubBle 04 (10:25:19 PM)
: EXTREEEEME
QuantumFury (10:25:27 PM)
: LOL
QuantumFury (10:25:32 PM): hahaha
QuantumFury (10:25:33 PM): are u ok?
QuantumFury (10:25:40 PM): im getting concerned lol
QuantumFury (10:25:46 PM): ive never seen u this craziee b4
QuantumFury (10:25:48 PM): did u have wiid?
NikKiBubBle 04 (10:25:50 PM): O NO DADDYS HOME

QuantumFury (10:25:53 PM)
: LOL
NikKiBubBle 04 (10:26:00 PM): *hides the milk*
QuantumFury (10:26:05 PM)
: hahahaha
QuantumFury (10:27:19 PM): u really make me laugh
.....
QuantumFury (10:28:38 PM): more crazy becca
NikKiBubBle 04 (10:31:17 PM): XD
NikKiBubBle 04 (10:31:26 PM): the ration portions go up XD
QuantumFury (10:31:42 PM)
: hehe
QuantumFury (10:31:46 PM): from meager to filling
QuantumFury (10:41:12 PM): u can go eat leftover turkey food!
NikKiBubBle 04 (10:41:15 PM): Lucid Simulacrum: I think you need a Wii Becca
NikKiBubBle 04: becca needs no wiii :E
NikKiBubBle 04: she can share from yalls stashes >:E
Lucid Simulacrum: Eeeeee
Lucid Simulacrum: Noooooo
Lucid Simulacrum: *hides Wiid
NikKiBubBle 04: *attacks like rabid squirrel*
QuantumFury (10:41:45 PM)
: LOL
QuantumFury (10:41:47 PM): crap
QuantumFury (10:41:52 PM): i better hide my wiid
NikKiBubBle 04 (10:42:13 PM): i am like a bloodhound
NikKiBubBle 04 (10:42:18 PM): wiiiiiid mutt!
QuantumFury (10:43:30 PM)
: uhoh
QuantumFury (10:43:43 PM): *puts up electric fence*
NikKiBubBle 04 (10:44:17 PM): *gets shocked to a crisp but manages to breach fence*-
QuantumFury (10:44:23 PM)
: *gets shotgun*
QuantumFury (10:44:28 PM): *fires*
NikKiBubBle 04 (10:44:56 PM): OW *absorbs pellet*
QuantumFury (10:45:05 PM)
: its not working!
QuantumFury (10:45:17 PM): *fires again*
NikKiBubBle 04 (10:45:59 PM): *acquires metal plating*
QuantumFury (10:46:10 PM)
: doh!
QuantumFury (10:46:19 PM): here, take the wiid
NikKiBubBle 04 (10:49:35 PM): yay *gnaws on the precioussss*
(aaand...the plot twist....i TOTALY did not see it coming XD)

QuantumFury (10:49:44 PM)
: yes!
QuantumFury (10:49:47 PM): its a fake!
QuantumFury (10:49:50 PM): *drops trap*
NikKiBubBle 04 (10:50:06 PM): noes!!!!!
NikKiBubBle 04 (10:50:13 PM): *farts a lot*
QuantumFury (10:50:19 PM)
: OMG
QuantumFury (10:50:20 PM): noooo
QuantumFury (10:50:23 PM): ur like selena!
NikKiBubBle 04 (10:50:26 PM): i ate her
NikKiBubBle 04 (10:50:31 PM): and incorporated her genome
QuantumFury (10:51:26 PM)
: omg
QuantumFury (10:51:37 PM): you're absorbing other poeople
QuantumFury (10:51:39 PM): so bad!
NikKiBubBle 04 (10:51:48 PM): DELICIOUS FRIENDS
QuantumFury (10:51:51 PM)
: NOO
NikKiBubBle 04 (10:51:52 PM): FRIENDS AUGMENT FRIENDS
QuantumFury (10:51:58 PM)
: DECLISIOUS FRIENDS ARE FRIENDS
QuantumFury (10:51:59 PM): NOT FOOD
NikKiBubBle 04 (10:52:07 PM): FISH ARE FRIENDS and FOOD
QuantumFury (10:53:15 PM)
: NOOO BECCA
QuantumFury (10:53:17 PM): BAD BECCA
QuantumFury (10:54:46 PM): lol
.............
NikKiBubBle 04 (11:06:48 PM): time to study fo rizzle now
NikKiBubBle 04 (11:06:51 PM)
: nite jlammo XD
NikKiBubBle 04 (11:07:00 PM)
: *stands up and casually walksoff*


Tuesday, October 31, 2006

today i went to sbisa at 7:30am. and then i drew this instead of taking a nap. the end. :P

FoxCatFace



Wednesday, September 20, 2006

For Free

Today i got lots of free things to counterbalance stress and tests and the overwhelmingness that is Life.

Something I've been 'blessed' with this year has been countless challenges that've been placed forth in my life. I suppose i have indeed been stepping out of my comfort zone a lot since sophomore year since i found a heart for God...as in, i wanted to share the love he has for me with others. So that pretty much gave me the drive & courage to face...DUN DUN DUN....people. =O

Anyway, yeah a lot of challenges have been put before me this year-ish. Leadership with aaiv, being an upperclassman in general, continuing to discover more about my calling as a follower of Jesus, coping with duties and things i want to do, struggling with school, and most of all being a friend.

I've had friends help push me over the edge finally X). In the back of my head i used to pride myself that I never got angry with people, or easily annoyed, or had harsh tendencies of any sort. Basically it was determined that i just was blessed with excessive patience, and my friends and i used to joke about how it would be hilarious when someday i snap and become like a crazy psycho-killer librarian or something (dont ask me lol). Soo over the summer i realized hey...i HAVE snapped finally! Wow...it is interesting to actually feel frustration, be quick to anger, and discover that i do indeed have the same tendencies that most human beings have XD. I'm not saying i endorse that or anything...i'm just saying that finally i've been given an opportunity to go through some of the basic struggles that everyone else deals with : ). I've been told that's a good thing lol.

But yeah...lotsa learning and growing. It's cool to have friends around than push your buttons with their personalities and inadvertently cause you to learn a lot about how to deal with different kinds of people and how to best relate to them and how to build and maintain our friendships. In semi-retrospect (not like it's exactly retrospect yet is what i mean) it's been a wonderful experience and i continue to look forward to where this will take me as my journey with Jesus in college and life unfolds ; ). I definitely do not enjoy arguing with people and being frustrated and giving in to snappiness and irked-ness, but with those feeling i am also learning to deal~ Andi shall be much better off for it. Finally i can put my money where my mouth is (so the saying goes) and not just talk about "forgive your neighbor" and "be slow to anger" and "be understanding to your fellow brothers and sisters" but actually deal with it myself and live it out. I find i rather enjoy constructive criticism ^^.

It's my hope and prayer that all i go through will be beneficial for me as well as for all my friends and anyone who i'll ever come across. And also it's been good to be able to be honest and 'transparent' with people. Something that's been reemphasized over and over as of late has been the importance of being honest with a team. And the way i take it, a team is aaiv, a team is our A&M aggie family, teams are our groups of friends, and we are team members with our fellow disciples of Christ = ). It's been a blessing to be able to share part of myself with my friends. And i've learned to appreciate that a lot, because it's something not everyone has. In fact, i used to not have it either. But i praise God for all he has given me, as well as for all the trials and challenges he allows me to go through. 

 I can do all things through Christ my savior. yeahh. I'm hangin on to you. Carry me through.



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